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  I hang up and bring my covers up to my neck. Remembering that Dad would have locked the door, I hop out to go unlock the door. I return to my bed and close my eyes. I had the worst headache ever.

  “Hey Sweetness,” Jake says from the foot of my bed.

  I throw back my covers and invite him to climb in. I rest my face in the crook of his neck as his arms wrap around me. “How are you feeling?”

  “Like my head could explode.” Jake’s hands moved up and down my body and a thought hits me. “Did you have plans with the guys today?”

  “No.”

  “Good. I wouldn’t want to interrupt your plans.”

  “You could never interrupt my plans.”

  I climb out of bed and get my favorite picture of Jake and me off the wall. Drake took this when we were opening presents at Christmas. I just opened Jake’s and he leaned in to whisper in my ear that I was the only present he wanted. Drake captured the moment after that when I smiled at him. I hugged the picture to my chest and crawled back in bed.

  “I love this picture of us.”

  “Me too.”

  I let him hold me until I fall asleep.

  I feel his warm arms tightly around me and hear his even breathing. I keep my eyes closed to relish this feeling because it probably won’t last much longer. I take in the feel of his chin resting on top of my head and the length of his body against mine. I inhale deeply the way his smells. Underneath the smell of Ralph Lauren’s Polo Blue, was the sweet scent of Jake. I could smell his aftershave and the ivory soap his washes with.

  Jake stirs. I look up into his sleepy green eyes and smile. It must be around six in the evening. There was a knock on my door and I called for whomever it was to come in. Conrad walks through the door and I sit up. “I just wanted to say goodbye.”

  “You are leaving already,” I ask. He nods and walks over to me. Conrad leans over, kisses my forehead, and leaves. “Keep in touch, okay?” I nodded and then he was gone. I fell backwards on my bed.

  “He’s gone,” I whisper.

  “I know,” he says into my hair.

  “Is it wrong to feel relieved? I was happy to see him, but I’m happy to see him go as well.”

  “It’s not wrong.”

  We lay in my bed until it’s time for Jake to go pick up Drake.

  Jake

  School goes by slowly. I’m excited when I got some alone time with Emily later at my house. She was straddling me. She takes my face in her hands and gives a small smile. “Stubble,” she comments.

  I chuckle as the mood lightens. “I ran out of time this morning,” I tell her.

  “I kind of like it,” she says with a tilt of her head.

  “Do you?”

  “Well, as long as I don’t get whisker burn, yes.”

  I laugh. Emily leans forward and gives me a kiss. Through the kiss, she shows me her love. I show her my love and excitement for our future. She is mine and until she didn’t want me, she always would be. Drake ran into my room and Emily quickly slides off of me. He is ecstatic to see Emily. He fills her in on every detail of his life since she last saw him.

  After about ten minutes, I send him to do his homework. We lay in silence until I ask a question. “Are you happy, Emily? Like are you happy you’re with me, even though you could have Conrad?”

  She props up on her elbows and looks at me. “Of course I am. What is it you told me? If I didn’t want to be here, I wouldn’t be. And trust me, I want to be right here,” she says wiggling to lay on top of me. I let out a laugh and place a kiss upon her lips. She rolls over to my left, the side by the wall and crawls under the covers. “I love your bed. It’s so much better than mine,” she says.

  I get under the covers and pull her to me. “How so?”

  She gives me a smile that I love so much. “It smells like you and it’s just more comfy.” To drive her comment home, she brings the sheets to her nose and inhales, letting out an “ahhh.” I chuckle at her and give her a peck on her perfect lips. My door creaks open and I turn to see Drake. “What’s up,” I ask.

  “Just wanted to tell you that I’m finished. Can I hang out with you guys,” he asks.

  “Of course. Come join the party,” Emily says. Drake doesn’t hesitate. He runs and jumps on the bed. Specifically me.

  “Ow!,” I fake pain. Emily and Drake laugh and Drake settles between us on top of the covers. “So, what are we doing,” Drake asks.

  “We were talking,” I interject before Emily could say something.

  “About what,” he asks.

  I glance at Emily and say, “Emily was just telling me how she likes the way I smell.”

  Drake laughs and looks over at her. “How can you like the way he smells? He always stinks!” I start a tickle attack on him. He rolls over to Emily, pleading for her help. I look at Emily and tell her, “You try and stop me and I’m coming after you.” They pull a maneuver that I wasn’t expecting. Drake rolled towards the wall and Emily towards me, therefore switching places and putting Drake farther away from me.

  Emily the rolls on me and grabs my hands. I let her think that she’s stronger than me. “Go Drake,” she tells him. Drake jumps up, hops off the bed and shoots to the other side of the room.

  “Now Sweetness, I told you that if you tried to stop me, I would come after you.”

  She gives me a half skeptical look. “You wouldn’t really jeopardize your relationship over a simple tickle attack, would you?”

  “So that’ s how it’s going to be, huh?”

  “That’s exactly how it’s going to be.”

  “We’ll see about that.” I roll over and take her wrists in one of my hands, while the other attacks her stomach. “Come help Drake,” I offer.

  Emily is wiggling beneath me and in between laughs she begs for me to stop. Drake joins in and Emily says, “I helped you Drake!”

  He shrugs. “Sorry Emily, but he’s my brother.”

  “Ha ha,” I say to her. She starts to squeal between laughs.

  “Please…stop!”

  “Why should I,” I ask with an evil grin.

  “I’ll do whatever you want!”

  “Promise,” I ask.

  She nods her head and I tell Drake to stop. I quit and let go of her wrists. “Drake, go play in your room.”

  “Why,” he whines.

  “Because, Emily has to fulfill her promise,” I say with my eyes on her.

  He reluctantly leaves and closes the door behind him. “What do I have to do,” Emily says gravely.

  “C’mon, you act like it’s gong to be a bad thing.” I roll off of her and she gives me a skeptical look when she rolls onto her side to look at me. I laugh. “You are going to let me give you a hickey,” I decide since I know how it bothers her.

  She moans. “Jake, what did I tell you? Those things are a pain to try and hide and you make them bad enough to last a week or more!”

  “You promised,” I remind her. She groans. “Don’t worry, I’ll find a spot where it will hide itself,” I tell her, already having a place in mind. It was a place where a kiss drove her just as crazy as that spot below her ear. I get up and go to the foot of my bed where my dresser sits. I open up a drawer.

  “What are you doing,” Emily voices asks from behind me.

  “Unless you want to be in your underwear, then you’re going to need some shorts.” I hold up a pair of my basketball shorts. “These should fit if you pull the strings tight enough. C’mon. Don’ just lay there. Go change.” She gives me a skeptical look, but gets up, snatches the shorts, and passes me to go into the bathroom to the right of me. I return to my bed after locking my door while she changes out of her pants and into my shorts.

  When she steps out of the bathroom, I perk up. Her wearing my clothes is undeniably a turn on. “Come here,” I say holding out my hand. She takes it and reclaims her spot to my left, lying on her back. To do this properly, I hover over her and kiss her hard. When I can tell she wants more, I remove my lips and sit up
. I scoot down to her smooth legs and bring her knees up.

  As expected, my shorts fall down revealing her thighs. I feather kisses along her outer thigh before moving to her inner thigh, about five inches up from where her legs end. I glance at her, give her a wicked grin and get started on her hickey. She tries to wiggle away, but I hold her in place. I suck on her skin, longer than I need to just so I can see how long it will take her to cave.

  When I swirl my tongue in circles, she pops up, takes my face and pulls me to her. I capture her mouth before she rolls us over and she straddles me. I rest my hands on her hips as she moves to my neck with frantic kisses. I know she’s on the verge of giving in to her desires. She slides my shirt up, exposing my stomach. Emily moves down to run her hands and lips over my torso. When she places an intoxicating kiss, just above my jeans on my hip, I grab her arms and move her back to me.

  Her brown eyes flash open and I see exactly what she wants. I planned on giving it to her too. I knew I should have bought a pack of condoms the other day. It’s only once.

  Emily

  I hurriedly put my clothes on an hour later. “I can’t believe our first time was with Drake in the house! And without a condom! That was stupid Jake” I say, stunned at myself for getting carried away. I plop onto the edge of Jake’s bed and run a hand through my hair. I look back at Jake, who is still naked under the sheets and glare at him. “You know kissing me there always sets me off and you did it anyway!” I shake my had and run my fingers through my hair again.

  Jake’s arm snakes around my waist and he pulls me backwards. My back rests on his chest and my head on his shoulder, with my feet still dangling off the bed. I turn my head to look at him as he begins to talk. “I didn’t know I was that powerful,” he says with a smirk.

  I roll my eyes, but I can’t help but place a kiss on his lips.

  “I love you.”

  “I love you too Jake. I still can’t believe it,” I say with a shake of my head.

  “Well believe Sweetness, because it definitely happened and it was fantastic.”

  I smile, but I keep my eyes on the ceiling. “Want to know a secret,” I ask him after a moment.

  “Of course,” he says.

  I place my lips close to his ear so when I talk, they will brush it. “It’s been a long time since I’ve had sex and I can tell you right now, once I start again, I want it. All. The. Time.”

  He moves so fast, it takes me a minute to register what he did. He rolled over on top of me. Jake’s face hovers over mine. “I most definitely do not have a problem with that.” He leans down and kisses me. We would have gotten carried away, but my phone rings. I try to even my breath when I see that it’s my dad.

  “Hey Daddy,” I breathe in a rush.

  “Hey honey. Where are you? Are you going to be home for dinner?”

  “I’m at Jake’s and yes. He’s about to take me home, right now,” I reply with a glance to Jake who frowns.

  “Alright. I’ll see you soon. Bye honey.” He hangs up.

  “Time to go home,” I tell Jake.

  He kisses my neck and says, “Noooo.”

  “Yes,” I giggle. I gently push him away and stand up. He groans and gets up. Jake grabs his clothes and I look away so I won’t be tempted. He comes up behind me and pulls me close.

  “What’s the matter Sweetness?” He chuckles.

  The feel of his naked body makes a sigh slip from my lips. “Get dressed,” I say stepping away from him. I walk over to the door to escape from further temptations. I walk across the hall to tell Drake to put his shoes on so they can take me home. I stand in his room while he puts them on.

  Jake parks in my driveway and takes my hand. He leans over and places a kiss on my cheek. “I’ll see you tomorrow. I love you.”

  “I love you too.” With that I go inside.

  After supper with my father, I tell him that I will wash the dishes tonight. He goes into the living room and turns on the TV. Surprisingly, washing dishes relaxes me. I did some thinking while I was scrubbing the dishes and I knew what I needed to do. What I needed to do for me, for Jake, and for us.

  “Dad, I need to go out for a bit, okay?”

  “Don’t be out too late.”

  With my keys in hand, I went out to the garage and headed to Jake’s.

  When I arrived, I saw Jake’s dad sitting on the porch steps. When I walk up, he gives a small smile. “Hi Emily.”

  “Hey Mr. Benson. How are you?”

  “I’m fine. I’m glad to see you doing well. Can I talk to you for just a minute, before you go inside?”

  “Um, sure.” I take a seat beside him. “Mr. Benson, you are doing better right? You’re sober, going to AA, and working on your grief, right?”

  He nods. “I was wondering if maybe you can talk to Jake and get him to forgive me. I’m glad he could fall in love with a sweet girl like you.”

  I give him a smile. “I’m lucky to have him. I’ll try to talk to him.” I stand and go inside, up the stairs to Jake’s room. I knock and hear that voice that I love so much call me in. I peek inside, seeing him lay on his bed doing homework. When he sees me, he sits up. “What are you doing here,” he asks as I come to sit on the bed beside him.

  “I need to talk to you.”

  The smile fades as concern takes over.

  I bump shoulders with him. “Hey, it’s nothing bad.”

  “Well, what is it,” he asks.

  “I was thinking and I have come to a decision.” I pause. “I love you more than I thought possible and I just felt that I needed to tell you.”

  He smiles. “Sweetness, I’m so happy to hear that. I promise I’m going to do everything it takes to make you happy.”

  I lean over and give him a kiss. “Well, there is one other thing I would like to talk to you about,” I say taking his hand. His eyes search mine and I forge ahead before I back out of my plan. “I think you should forgive your dad.” He sighs and lays back down.

  “Jake, just listen to me. I talked to him outside.”

  “You talked to him?”

  “Yes. He’s doing better Jake. Why can’t you forgive him? Look at him now. He’s sober and he’s getting his life back. That counts for something and you need to forgive him. I really think that would further help him.” He didn’t say anything and after a minute, I sighed. “Will you just consider it? Please? For me?”

  “I’ll think about it,” he says, pulling me to him. “You’re not going to leave now are you,” he asks after kissing me.

  I give him what I hope is a sexy smile. “I was going to…do you have something else in mind?”

  He chuckles, placing a kiss on my neck. “Oh, you know I do.”

  I pull away from him and tell him, “Well, I’m sorry that I can’t stay.” I laugh at his fake hurt expression. “I’m not going to with people in the house. Maybe this weekend, though. I think my dad is working out of town.”

  “I will be there.”

  I give him a peck. “Good. I’ll see you tomorrow. I love you.”

  “I love you too Emily.” I stand up and go to leave.

  Jake

  After finishing my homework, I thought about what Emily said about my dad. He was doing better. I couldn’t deny that. He was starting to eat dinner with us, but it was awkward. I sighed. Maybe I should forgive him. But would it be a real forgiveness? I fell asleep thinking about it.

  At lunch, I fill in Emily on what happened this morning. “My dad said that he wanted to take Drake out this weekend and spend time with him.”

  “Really? That’s great Jake!,” she says.

  I’m not so enthused. “I don’t know Sweetness. I don’t want him to start doing stuff with Drake and then just drop him again.”

  “Have more faith in your dad, Jake. I have a good feeling about it.”

  All I do is nod. We finish our lunch with small talk about school. “Sweetness?”

  She glances up at me. “Don’t plan anything at all this weekend.”
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  “Why?”

  I give her a mischievous grin. “Just don’t.”

  “Okay,” she says with a shrug of her shoulders. I don’t know what we’ll do yet, but I want to show her how much I love her and how much I appreciate her. I have some thinking to do. Meanwhile, I had class to attend. I throw away our plates and we walk together to our next class. I don’t pay much attention. I need to figure out how I want to spend this entire weekend with Emily. Suddenly the idea came to me.

  It was perfect. I would need to call my uncle and set some arrangements in place. Then I would need to skip school Friday to go and set things in place. This was going to be great and I couldn’t wait!

  At home, I decided to talk to my dad. We were sitting in the living room on the couch watching TV. This is something we haven’t done since my mom died. “Dad? I want to take Emily to Uncle Roy’s place for the weekend. I just want to take her away. Do you mind being with Drake all weekend?”

  “Of course not. This will give us some father-son time. Does her father know you two will be spending the weekend there?”

  “She doesn’t even know it yet. Emily just knows that we will be doing something. He’s going to be out of town this weekend, so…” I trail off.

  “That’s sketchy territory son. She needs to tell her father,” he tells me with a serious face.

  “I’ll tell her,” I reassure him. “Thanks Dad,” I add. I hop up and run upstairs to text Emily.

  We’re going away 4 the weekend. U might want 2 tell your dad.

  Seconds later, she replies.

  He might stay home, if I do that. It can be our secret.

  Dad knows. I tell her.

  Does that mean y’all are better?

  Not yet.

  Are you going to give me a hint? What should I pack?

  Bathing suit and whatever else you want to wear. I tell her.

  I’m excited…I love you Jake <3

  I love you too Sweetness. See you soon.

  Finally, it is Friday! I wake up, take Drake to school, and come back home to pack my clothes. I stuffed my duffle bag with clothes, personal toiletries, and condoms. Everything else was in the car. With my bag in hand, I went to my car to start the drive to my Uncle’s home away from home, which was a few hours away.